Homelessness....
Powerful fucked up word that none of us want to be associated with.... attachment to that word means all kinds of pain and hurt
For me Homeless has many meanings... last night I couldn't sleep after watching the #rtebigpic documentary. It literally kept me awake for many reasons because homeless for me has multiple forms and when I posted a couple of posts about the programme on fb I got called on my opinion...
I was asked to define Homelessness....
So I will......
You're cold and tired and you've just spent the evening hiding what you call a bed underneath a pile of waste beneath actual waste but it's safe because the actual waste won't be collected till Friday and today is only Wednesday. It's 10pm and bedding down won't happen till at least 4am because bedding down means shivering and choking in your own thoughts, and you wish you had a roof and someone to cling to...
You're cold and tired and you've just spent the evening hiding from the moment you have to visit what you call a bed underneath a pile of waste beneath actual hurt and it's not safe because maybe Friday you can sleep and today is only Wednesday, and you have a roof and someone cruel to cling to you....
Today was painful... another day alone and the hours ticked by like minutes and it left you feeling like you woke up two days ago and the tv blares at you and you can't stand the sound of it but you can't stand the sound of nothing screaming at you either....
Must you sleep... must you wake... must every minute scream pain at you....
You're abused... you're alone.... you're lonely.... you're young.... you're old.... you're beaten.....
You're homeless... On the street... In your head.... In your own home.....
Homeless is more than being without a roof... homeless is unhappy, it's lonely, it's a goddamn fucked up moment that never ticks by... it's time trapped in your head that won't allow you to escape.
Being homeless doesn't end until dawn brings you a chance, or peace of mind, or a roof to call your own, or thoughts that once again belong to you.......
Maybe tomorrow eh......
Valerie Masters
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